[Her outburst actually startles Killua. Thoroughly distracted by her motions, he steps back the slightest bit from her spoon waving, his shocked expression slowly fading into something honestly torn.
He agrees with her. He's always complained about it, since he grew old enough to realize how restricting it was. But somehow now, self doubt nagged at the back of his mind. The constant thoughts and desires to run didn't help, and a recent decision to abandon a friend to die in order to carry Gon away had sealed the deal. He was troubled over all of this, and Illumi's face was tied to it all.
But--]
Do you ever feel scared? [He asks this out of nowhere, soft and curious, but toned just casually enough to sound like he doesn't mind if the answer goes one way or the other.] That I've killed a bunch of people. Does it ever feel like I could hurt you?
[That's what he's worried about. He'd never do it-- but his brother keeps warning that it'll happen anyway. And with recent news from Hisoka about Gon...]
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He agrees with her. He's always complained about it, since he grew old enough to realize how restricting it was. But somehow now, self doubt nagged at the back of his mind. The constant thoughts and desires to run didn't help, and a recent decision to abandon a friend to die in order to carry Gon away had sealed the deal. He was troubled over all of this, and Illumi's face was tied to it all.
But--]
Do you ever feel scared? [He asks this out of nowhere, soft and curious, but toned just casually enough to sound like he doesn't mind if the answer goes one way or the other.] That I've killed a bunch of people. Does it ever feel like I could hurt you?
[That's what he's worried about. He'd never do it-- but his brother keeps warning that it'll happen anyway. And with recent news from Hisoka about Gon...]