[Jaime will never say what he feels at that explanation out loud, not to Killua and certainly not to anyone else. Relief and happiness slam into him like a brick wall once he realizes that though he's gone into an awful situation, Gon is alive. Thank god, he thinks to himself. Thank god.
It probably makes him a terrible person to be happy at someone else dying, and he'll feel guilty about it later, but even he can't be a good person all the time. Past his relief, however, is the all-too predictable horror of what Gon and Killua are facing back home, and the things they've already seen, and the things they have yet to see.]
Oh, Killua, [he says, nothing but dismay in his voice, and it doesn't take him long after that to wrap him up in a hug. There's not much else he can say, not much else he can do, but he gives good hugs. His whole family does.
He's not sure if it will be a welcome gesture, but it's the first thing to pop into his head.]
I'm so sorry.
[And he is. He's just not as sorry as he would be if it were Gon that had died.]
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It probably makes him a terrible person to be happy at someone else dying, and he'll feel guilty about it later, but even he can't be a good person all the time. Past his relief, however, is the all-too predictable horror of what Gon and Killua are facing back home, and the things they've already seen, and the things they have yet to see.]
Oh, Killua, [he says, nothing but dismay in his voice, and it doesn't take him long after that to wrap him up in a hug. There's not much else he can say, not much else he can do, but he gives good hugs. His whole family does.
He's not sure if it will be a welcome gesture, but it's the first thing to pop into his head.]
I'm so sorry.
[And he is. He's just not as sorry as he would be if it were Gon that had died.]