[Trailing off, Killua cools down a bit at hearing that sadness. When he thinks back on it, he had thought of Gon immediately. But bringing Gon along with Hisoka for something like an amusement park? In a way, it was more that he was protecting him.
But now, he thinks, maybe it was unfair to have volunteered himself without Gon. Can't he do that with Gon still there?
Ugh, but he really feels dumb admitting the reasoning. So, embarrassed and reluctant, he continues.]
I didn't know what it was until Hisoka told me. He was talking about how he wanted to go but there was no one for him to go with... [A very long pause, and then a jolt.] It's normal, stupid! Of course I'd feel bad in a situation like that! It was hard to think beyond that!
[Gon's still unsure. Weird as Hisoka is, it seems odd for him to bring up this "Disney World" with Killua without it being a trap. Killua was the smart one so it had to be safe but…]
But it's still Hisoka...You should be careful about going places alone with him.
[He doesn't want to invite himself but-well. He is worried. Hisoka listens to him simply because he asserts himself but Killua still hesitates. Killua still lets his fear control him. Gon had to be there if he didn't want to run away.] Am I not allowed to go?
That's why I didn't invite you in the first place. But when you brought it up to me just now, I realized something.
[It's a voice thread, which is good. It means he can fidget and look around and Gon doesn't know at all. Eventually, he flops back on his bed, holding his phone up between himself and the ceiling.]
We can look out for each other! I doubt Hisoka would mind if it's both of us. He might get more excited. So let's go together.
[A pause, and he sits up again.] Oh, but then he'd still be sitting alone? ...Whatever.
[ Even if Killua can't see it, Gon is smiling. Beaming and brimming with excitement over being able to come along. It's weird that he had to ask permission but he doesn't give that much thought.]
I don't think Hisoka would mind sitting alone. Not if both of us are there. [He's not being conceited, he just knows Hisoka. As much as he hates to admit it. Whatever, switching topics.] It'd be a lot of fun, Killua! Thanks for letting me come along.
[He makes a face that nears pouting at that. It's playful, like always, even if more serious thoughts echo in the back of his mind. Of course he'd want Gon to go. He always wants to be with Gon. He feels lucky to be able to be with any given moment...
For a moment, he'd worried too much about protecting him. The chimera ants aren't here, so he can relax a little. For now.]
We're going to go on every ride! Let's try to make Hisoka throw up.
I'm not sure. He wouldn't even tell me what his job was before he got arrested. [He sighs like it's a huge pain.] But he did say it'd probably be in the summer, and that it's better to go then, too.
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[Trailing off, Killua cools down a bit at hearing that sadness. When he thinks back on it, he had thought of Gon immediately. But bringing Gon along with Hisoka for something like an amusement park? In a way, it was more that he was protecting him.
But now, he thinks, maybe it was unfair to have volunteered himself without Gon. Can't he do that with Gon still there?
Ugh, but he really feels dumb admitting the reasoning. So, embarrassed and reluctant, he continues.]
I didn't know what it was until Hisoka told me. He was talking about how he wanted to go but there was no one for him to go with... [A very long pause, and then a jolt.] It's normal, stupid! Of course I'd feel bad in a situation like that! It was hard to think beyond that!
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But it's still Hisoka...You should be careful about going places alone with him.
[He doesn't want to invite himself but-well. He is worried. Hisoka listens to him simply because he asserts himself but Killua still hesitates. Killua still lets his fear control him. Gon had to be there if he didn't want to run away.] Am I not allowed to go?
[Just… checking.]
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[It's a voice thread, which is good. It means he can fidget and look around and Gon doesn't know at all. Eventually, he flops back on his bed, holding his phone up between himself and the ceiling.]
We can look out for each other! I doubt Hisoka would mind if it's both of us. He might get more excited. So let's go together.
[A pause, and he sits up again.] Oh, but then he'd still be sitting alone? ...Whatever.
bleh this tag
I don't think Hisoka would mind sitting alone. Not if both of us are there. [He's not being conceited, he just knows Hisoka. As much as he hates to admit it. Whatever, switching topics.] It'd be a lot of fun, Killua! Thanks for letting me come along.
um there is nothing bleh about it
[He doesn't want to think about it like that! Making a face to himself, he pauses only a moment before rolling back over on his stomach.]
Don't miss what I'm saying, stupid... I wanted you to come from the start.
how about this one
Okay, good! I guess you were just too slow. [With a bit of a laugh, he sticks out his tongue.]
nope that one's still cute bc gon
[He makes a face that nears pouting at that. It's playful, like always, even if more serious thoughts echo in the back of his mind. Of course he'd want Gon to go. He always wants to be with Gon. He feels lucky to be able to be with any given moment...
For a moment, he'd worried too much about protecting him. The chimera ants aren't here, so he can relax a little. For now.]
We're going to go on every ride! Let's try to make Hisoka throw up.
THEN THIS ONE
you're doomed for forever cute
ruining the cute; not here
shoves hisoka away
double shoves hisoka away
Yeah, even he has to break at some point! I bet he's got a weakness. Let's make sure we don't skip any ride. Okay?
Ahh, it'll probably be a ways into the future before we can go, though. Since Hisoka has to get out of jail and raise the money.
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