[Ah, a confirmation. Alluka was here and went back, as he suspected - that thing showed up in network records, but no ID pinged back for a person still present. That Killua will tell him as much, and without trying to refuse him, confirms it extra; he must think Alluka is safer at home than here.
Aha, is that Illumi's fault? And after he promised Alluka's (relative) freedom (barely), too...]
And you didn't. Alluka must be lonely.
[There's something wrong with the progression of time, here, based solely on months of records supposedly made when he was actively speaking to them both in their own world - but at the same time, there's nothing to guarantee Alluka isn't at home entirely without Killua's protection, right now.
Pity, he'd almost prefer dealing with that, before continuing this game with Kil.]
According to this, [helpful google machine] that was enough time running around away from home. Your selfishness put a lot of people in danger.
[This just in: it's Killua's fault Alluka showed up to this world in the first place.]
[By now, he's hiding at Jaime's. It's a guess-- he doesn't think Illumi has any real means of stalking him outside of using information he'd given over the network, or public things like housing, so this should be fine. How would he know which person he occasionally spoke to on the network he might hideout with? Which city he'd be in?
Still, this message does interrupt his panicked explanations, and he's pretty pissed at casual mentioning of Alluka when he knows that someone treats her as he does... He's not going to fight back against that lonely comment. He's not going to tell him he's with her back home, too.]
dont talk to me about putting people in danger thats all you DO
[He's so mad, and probably the only thing keeping him calm is the fact that he should be calm for Jaime's sake. There's benefits to friendship!! He swears.]
im not a killer anymore
[This isn't helping, he realizes, even as he sends it. He's just playing into his hand, isn't he? Out of aggravation, he gets a little more bold again.]
[No, no there aren't. Stop at once. Not that Illumi is aware of where Killua is or who he's with, but on PRINCIPLE...
That said, Killua still seems to think he can walk away from being a Zoldyck. That's not how it works - it's impossible. Illumi has believed that for long enough, the alternative is truly alien.
Which is probably why he's still talking as if this is a natural conversation and not Killua repeatedly trying to get away from his responses, in the end.]
It isn't something you can quit. You weren't born for anything else but this.
[He considers, then chooses not to rise to that bait. Instead, icily:]
[It's those words that strike him personally. Everything Illumi has said has been pointed and harmful to the state of his mind right now, but this especially. A weapon?
The feelings he felt while Gon was missing resurface. Hisoka's words about him letting Gon get hurt in the future. Emotionally, he cracks a little.
A weapon... He's not a weapon! He doesn't want to be, not anymore! That's exactly why he quiet, and why he's traveling with Gon now! Did Illumi think he could just drag him back to this?! No, he wasn't going to! He wasn't going to lose his friend, he wasn't going to let him get hurt, he wasn't-- (These were lies. Already, he was lying.)
He almost replies, but he forces the phone down, clutching it tightly. No.
[Illumi waits a few minutes, after his last message. As they drag on, he assumes he finally hit his mark; there's still, apparently, a part of Killua he can press under his thumb until it cracks, and the rest of his resolve crumbles. He'd expected a little more fire, truthfully - a little more threats to take action, rather than nothing but refusals down the line until he broke.
Odd. Maybe it's because Alluka is gone. Their attachment has always sat poorly with Illumi, and it stands to reason it's causing Killua problems even now.
But with Killua apparently down for the count - it's been several minutes now, and nothing - Illumi thinks he might as well move on for the moment to other things. This city might be unfamiliar, but he's tracked Killua across entire continents before, so what exactly is a few more city blocks? He can wait.
He will.
Not, however, without a final comment, just when it seems like he might keep his mouth shut. He has the nerve to use that tone again, brittle-bright:]
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is it..... are you deceiving me...
Aha, is that Illumi's fault? And after he promised Alluka's (relative) freedom (barely), too...]
And you didn't. Alluka must be lonely.
[There's something wrong with the progression of time, here, based solely on months of records supposedly made when he was actively speaking to them both in their own world - but at the same time, there's nothing to guarantee Alluka isn't at home entirely without Killua's protection, right now.
Pity, he'd almost prefer dealing with that, before continuing this game with Kil.]
According to this, [helpful google machine] that was enough time running around away from home. Your selfishness put a lot of people in danger.
[This just in: it's Killua's fault Alluka showed up to this world in the first place.]
i would never do such a thing bats eyelashes
Still, this message does interrupt his panicked explanations, and he's pretty pissed at casual mentioning of Alluka when he knows that someone treats her as he does... He's not going to fight back against that lonely comment. He's not going to tell him he's with her back home, too.]
dont talk to me about putting people in danger
thats all you DO
#doubt
He's still outside somewhere, too, but the noise of traffic and people has gotten quieter. A rooftop? Knowing him, anyway-]
Ha ha ha! [ah] Don't be so self-righteous, Kil. A killer doesn't have any right to object.
[He's dropped the Alluka subject, at least. Out of sight, out of mind—that's the whole point.]
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im not a killer anymore
[This isn't helping, he realizes, even as he sends it. He's just playing into his hand, isn't he? Out of aggravation, he gets a little more bold again.]
you still cant find me
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That said, Killua still seems to think he can walk away from being a Zoldyck. That's not how it works - it's impossible. Illumi has believed that for long enough, the alternative is truly alien.
Which is probably why he's still talking as if this is a natural conversation and not Killua repeatedly trying to get away from his responses, in the end.]
It isn't something you can quit. You weren't born for anything else but this.
[He considers, then chooses not to rise to that bait. Instead, icily:]
What do you think you are if not a weapon?
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The feelings he felt while Gon was missing resurface. Hisoka's words about him letting Gon get hurt in the future. Emotionally, he cracks a little.
A weapon... He's not a weapon! He doesn't want to be, not anymore! That's exactly why he quiet, and why he's traveling with Gon now! Did Illumi think he could just drag him back to this?! No, he wasn't going to! He wasn't going to lose his friend, he wasn't going to let him get hurt, he wasn't-- (These were lies. Already, he was lying.)
He almost replies, but he forces the phone down, clutching it tightly. No.
He did quit.]
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Odd. Maybe it's because Alluka is gone. Their attachment has always sat poorly with Illumi, and it stands to reason it's causing Killua problems even now.
But with Killua apparently down for the count - it's been several minutes now, and nothing - Illumi thinks he might as well move on for the moment to other things. This city might be unfamiliar, but he's tracked Killua across entire continents before, so what exactly is a few more city blocks? He can wait.
He will.
Not, however, without a final comment, just when it seems like he might keep his mouth shut. He has the nerve to use that tone again, brittle-bright:]
Mind your place, Killua. I'll see you soon.